Friday, May 16, 2014

No pain, No gain

I've grown way too complacent. How do I know this? Extremely simple. Because I failed a test today (even though the results aren't out yet) which I'm pretty sure I could have ace IF I had done my work properly. This was an extremely rude awakening. One which I had experienced a lot already in my university. Yet despite that heavy feeling of failure, I always end up doing the same thing over and over again. Which is, basically, being lazy and complacent as usual. How many more failures must I experience before I get my act together and do my hardest and best, to ensure that something like this doesn't happen again, not only for myself but also for the people around me? The reason I say "the people around me" because knowledge comes with responsibility to spread that same knowledge to other people, to help them understand their work better and use it efficiently and since my future goal is to be a professor/researcher, that responsibility increases ten fold. (I'm probably spouting nonsense in that last sentence, so if you want to, you can ignore it)

You know there is this phrase which I really like and I'm pretty sure everyone else has heard of it (unless your teacher didn't teach you this in school or something) and that very phrase is: "No pain, No gain". I don't know whether I've used this phrase in any of my previous posts before (because I'm too lazy to check and whatnot) but I'll just use it anyway because it seems appropriate for my current mood. Basically, what that phrase is saying that behind every pain you suffer, whether physically, mentally, spiritually, psychologically, etc. , you'll always be able to learn something behind it. Even the darkest despair of depression is considered pain because it is an emotional pain so bad that you may actually want to commit suicide and thus is actually considered one of the many terrible experiences an individual has to go through in life (and I kid you not when I say this, you will definitely go through it and WILL think of suicide).  But don't let that deter you because in life you'll also find things which will give you the best experiences to enjoy. Think of life as a roller coaster ride, there are ups and downs, similar to how life works. There will always be good things and bad things occurring in your life and like all things, whatever has a beginning (be it enjoyment, suffering, pain, life), has an ending which highly depends on how you end it. So whatever you do, don't end your life prematurely by committing suicide cause how else will you know that maybe somewhere in your future, you'll get something which will be the best thing in your life?

So I went a bit off track there and I apologize for that. Me and dumb habit to go off (grumble grumble). So back to the "No pain, No gain" thing. So as I had said before, whatever pain you feel, you will always be able to learn something from it. But despite whatever you learn, it won't be useful at all unless you dig yourself out of the pain and stand back up because if you give up right there and then, then who's going to use whatever you've learn? Your friends? Your family? Your dog (or whatever pet you have)? NOBODY! Because you didn't teach them what you have learn. Because you didn't bother to stand back up (give or take a bit of time to try and come to terms of it) and just let your failure rule the rest of your life. But most importantly, if you had let yourself to just lie there, then you yourself won't be able to use whatever you have learn and try to improve yourself. Sure you can just throw it away and just forget about it, but that's a recipe of getting into the same failure you had experienced before. Trust me, I've been through it a lot of times already.

Thus, we have finally come to the final paragraph. This is the part where I summarize whatever INTELLECTUAL stuff I spouted from the very beginning. To put into simple context, learn from the pain and get back up (after some consoling time of course) so that you can use whatever you have learned to correct yourself and spread it to other people so that when they experience it (they will, just because they learned it from you doesn't mean they won't), they will know what to do. Also, life is a roller coaster ride, so enjoy the ride until the very end.

That's all from me folks. Till next time (and if it's like last time, probably a LONG time from now). =)

Monday, August 19, 2013

A cup of ....

Anything. Just take it and go to your veranda or balcony or whatnot. Sit or stand, drink your drink and just relax as you stare into space. Let your frustrations and worries of the day ease off into nothingness and enjoy your drink. And if somebody dares to disturb you, do what I do best, just stare and sleep. XD

As a bonus, here's a picture of a duck...


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Ok that was random. XD


Sunday, August 4, 2013

You know what, screw it.

I was thinking on how to start up this blog again until I entirely got fed up with it while I was in the toilet (funny how all our revelations are in the toilet. Even some great people had their revelations while the in toilet like Archimedes but I'm going off point here) and just decided to go ahead and post something to restart this blog. 

Aloha people. Been an extremely long time since I last posted something. I'm pretty sure this place is already full of cobwebs, chicken shells, dung (what?) and whatnot. Should clean it up or maybe I should just make a new one and completely start over. Or maybe not. One reason because I started with this blog and no matter what I will only have this blog to dump my thoughts into. Do take note that despite the fact that I said that I will dump my thoughts into this blog, I won't dump everything. Some things are meant to be private so don't bother (=P). 

So what have I been up to till now? Nothing much other than the usual stuff which are: studies, social issues (mostly about myself), eat, sleep and trying to sort my life out. Yes you heard me right. Trying to sort my life out. Up till now, I think it was after I enter university, I've been a bundle wreck full of...malice? Nope. Full of doubt and fear. I don't think I have ever mention this at all and I don't know why I'm mentioning it inside this blog. Maybe it's because I think that this blog has been abandon already and so I'm free to post anything I want now (of course I won't post anything INDECENT) but leaving it open for other people to see. As to why I'm doing this even I can't fathom a reason strong enough to answer this peculiar question. Was it a desire to show other people that even I have my own doubts and weaknesses or was it so that somebody will notice me? Whatever the case, I won't hide the fact that my life has been going through a roller coaster and I can say this for sure, this roller coaster isn't going to end anytime soon and while the ups are there every now and then, the downs have been far more frequent. 

But whatever the case, that's just how life rolls. Me, being a loner (I believe I have mention this before but if I haven't, now you know and if you don't understand what it is, I'll tell you guys next time), will have to find a way to sort these issues out. One of them is by God's grace and blessing because without Him we won't even be here. But other than that, I still have to do it by myself. I don't have many friends to share with and even with family I don't share much. This is an advice to anybody who is reading this, find somebody whom you can share your life and experience with. It can be a dog as far as I care but please, find a person whom you can share else you'll end up a totally depress and lonely person. Even if you have a lot of friends, it doesn't matter if you're wearing a mask to hide everything (your hurts, your pain, etc.) from everybody.

So this is the end of this post. Heh. I didn't know I still have the knack of typing long post. Though I'm pretty sure the previous ones were longer. Oh well, I'll end here tonight (or morning depending on your perspective) and sleep. 

Good night folks, till next time. 

Thursday, January 17, 2013

I'm back!

After God knows how long of not posting anything (too lazy to check the date =P), I'm finally back. They were many reasons as to why I didn't post anything up to now but as to the most recent one is because, exams!!!! And I'm glad to say that my exams are OVER!!!.....well for this semester that is. Bleh.....

Anyway, won't be posting anything tonight cause....I don't feel like it. Just here to wipe some dust. Wipe....wipe....wipe......I should just use a vacumn cleaner....

So that's that for tonight and as I always say...


FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMM!!!!

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Why do I feel as though I'm missing something....
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OH YEAH!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! ......belated that is. XD

Goodnight folks!! 

Sunday, October 21, 2012

CBOX IS UP AGAIN!!!

So yeah, some of you may notice but I had put up the cbox again. I said again because there was some.....very annoying people who kept talking crap on my cbox so had to take it down. But that was a long time ago and I'm pretty sure that they already left this blog alone.

So without further ado, I commence the opening of my cbox (again) ! Chat away people!
It's on the left side of the blog underneath my profile. 

But please refrain from saying anything offensive or prejudice. I will literally turn you to mash potato if you dare do so. >=D

Time - Taking, not Rushing

Aloha again people!! I'm back and before I say (type actually but who's counting right? XD) anything, I humbly apologize for leaving this blog alone to gather dusts for two months straight and leaving you guys (the readers to whom I'm grateful for the first time of my life, don't ask why) hanging. I have plenty of reasons which you will most probably already know so I won't drag this out any longer than I should. Unless you want me too.......nah~ =P

Anyway, now that is over and done with I guess I should go ahead with my usual session (rant). Have you ever come across this termed before? The one that says, "Take your time, don't rush"? I'm pretty sure we were told this at least once in our lifetime. Let it be your parents, your friends, your teachers, etc. but we were definitely told this whenever we were in a rush of getting something done or running out of time to do something. Actually, how many of us really do follow that advice? As in really follow it? Not just listen, apply only for that certain day or certain event and then forget about it only to be told again in the near future the very exact thing.  I'm sure all of us find this annoying because, in reality, there isn't really much time. If we just take our time leisurely, doing the tasks entrusted to us at a slow pace, we won't really have much time to do anything else. That's the very reason why we rush. To get the task done as fast as possible so that we have more time to do the things that we WANT to do. But despite these....wants that we harbor, there is actually some truth to those words. Now I'm sure some of you may know what I'm going to talk about, so if it is your wish, spend your time on doing something which you find beneficial rather than reading this. Your call.

We live in a society where everybody is busy, is always moving and everything must be done as soon as possible. If you're not the one who's rushing, then it would be your superior who will be asking you to rush cause if not then they'll be the one who will be in trouble. So in these kind of cases, we can't really take our time and not rush right? Actually, now that I think about it, we can't really use the term anywhere at all. BUT. That doesn't mean that we have to discard it altogether. Even though it's not useful and leave it inside our heads, we may one day find it useful and just simply apply. What I'm saying here is that they are no ideal cases to apply this. It's just something which you have to find the time to use it. Though I can think of one perfect example and it's when you're driving but who doesn't already know that right? If you rush while you drive, dumb things will always happen like you got into an accident, you *accidentally* killed someone, and so many more. So in the case of driving, the term "take your time, don't rush" is perfectly viable. Oh! OH! Found another perfect time for you to use the term. MEAL TIMES!!!! =D  You should know the reason. Other than the scientific fact that if you rush while eating, you'll get bad indigestion, it's also the perfect time for you to just simply sit and eat and rest at the same time, blocking out all those unwanted things from your head and just simply eat in peace. Course, it's better if you eat with your friends but I rarely do this. I prefer reading times than meal times if you must know why. Heh.

So I guess that's it for this little post. It's consider little for me cause it didn't go beyond the 3rd paragraph mark which I'm so accustomed to. Hope you guys didn't go all emo after reading this. Or better still LEARN something although you may have heard it a lot of times already. Anyway, fare thee well people and adios!

Always remember: "Take your time, Don't rush", taking your time won't kill you but rushing MAY actually do so.


Sunday, August 5, 2012

So...It's August...

Sigh.....SIgh......SIGh.......SIGH>>>>>>>>SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGH......

What am I doing you ask?? Just trying some sighing and adding them into my blog. ....I'm kidding. No really I am. Look I'm laughing: hahahahahahaha......now that was really lame. Gotta conk my head for that.

Anyway, just realized that I have only one month left until my class starts....again. Or maybe I should say, my 2nd year starts. How fast time flies by when you are having fun. Not that I'm dreading or anything like that, just that I don't know whether I did anything productive while enjoying my holidays. Maybe I should make a list of productive things I did during my holidays. Nah, not a good idea. Even without trying I can say that my productiveness is much much MUCH lower as compared to that of my unproductiveness (if that is even a word) which is very high. Why? Refer to my last post, check the date between that post and the post before that and you get your answer. Almost exactly 1 month. 1 month of playing games, sleeping around, doing chores, etc.

But enough about that depressing side of mine (yes I do have one, don't we all?) and let's get into the interesting part. While I'm dreading about how fast time flies, I'm also hoping for it to go faster so that I can go back to class. Weird right? To dread something yet hoping for it. Maybe it's because I have been in my house for too long. To do the same things everyday while just doing whatever interesting that comes to your mind and once the day ends, you go off to bed until the next day begins which you do the exact same things until day ends once again and this whole process repeats until you go back to whatever you do before the holiday began which in my case is going back to university to study and do whatever I do there. You know, to me I find my school life more interesting then my home life. Not that I have anything against my home life because that is where the best comedy, the best company (I don't have a girlfriend yet so yeah I'll get to that next time), the best food (who doesn't love their mother's cooking? =D) and the best drama (all families will sure have this) in the world. But despite that, it does tend to get boring after a while. No, not the family but the events in the house. It's practically the same every single day except for the occasional 'something' that does occur but that's beside the point. So with that said, the reason why I said my school life is much more interesting is because I learn something new in my classes every single day. Yeah I know. Lame reasoning but what I can say? When I'm in my house, the only thing I can think of is just doing the things I want to do which is not really productive and it doesn't help that I am lazy unless I have to do something which requires my utmost attention....which isn't really all that often. And if you're asking why I always say 'school life' instead of 'university life', it's because no matter what institution I go to as long as it is something that involves education, I will always call it a 'school' as my heart will always be that of a 'kid'. =D

Actually, now that I have said all these, I think I'm just making excuses. I mean everyday is a new day and everyday brings a new experience. So in that sense, we learn something new every single day whether it be a small thing or a big thing. Maybe it's because of my mentality that I said that I learn nothing new when I'm in my house. Maybe I do learn something new everyday but maybe it's because I think that I'm not learning anything that I am blind to the things that I've learned during that day. Well, it's all speculation but so far that's the best I can think of. I'll get back to that the next time I post something about this. Brain not working at the moment. XD

So I think I've said my share of stuff of whatever I wanted to say in this post. I'll stop here for tonight and get some z's. It's already 2 o'clock here and I really need to sleep. Eyes attempting to shut down on me. The same goes for my brain. Traitors. Anyway, good night people and always remember this: 'Everyday brings something new to learn no matter where we are'.

Till next time folks.